Friday, October 24, 2008

Sometimes all you can do is pray.

My uncle Gordon passed away this morning. It was a freak thing. If what I've been told is true, he was playing racquetball and suffered a massive heart attack and died right there. So here I sit with my heart in my hand, watching it wimper out the beats. Sometimes when I look at it and it is so sad I wonder if it will ever be all the way happy again. Gordon was so young. They just met their first grandbaby a few weeks ago. His wife Rosemary is one of the world's perfect people. She is fun, sweet, knowledgeable, generous and good. She has tremendous faith and I know she can get through this but at the same time I think, "just because she can, doesn't mean she should have to!" She shouldn't have to. My heart is broken for her. My heart aches for their kids who will now wish every day for a dad to be able to hold their babies and watch them grow. It is too sad. I love you guys so much.

I am far away and of no use. I hope to get on a plane and at least be able to hug people soon. Until then, all I can do is pray. I hope my prayers are little threads in that blanket of peace that they will be using. Keep them in your prayers, too.

10 comments:

Shawn H. said...

I'm sorry to hear about your uncle. Your family will be in our prayers.

Katie Price said...

So so sad. I'm glad you're coming. Then we can at least all cry together.

Casey said...

Shelby, your words perfectly describe how we are feeling. So sad, I hope their faith comforts them, and like you I hope to hug them all soon.

Anonymous said...

I am glad you are going to fly there and hug. You have prepared well for this moment. You will be a fine hugger and a fine blanket maker. - Lisa B.

Mallory said...

You don't know me, but Adrienne is one of my best friends. She's told me how great you are and thus my reason for stumbling upon your blog. I've spent hours agonizing over the news from today. I have such an intense love for her. We talk everyday about crazy things and I know how hard this will be for her and at the same time do not. I just pray and pray that I can be of some help. Sorry for the personal outpouring on your blog.

benreschke said...

Thanks for all the thoughts and prayers everyone. Gordon was a great guy and a funny one at that. This will be at the top of my list of questions to ask when I pass on. How are things? Rotten. We are just happy yesterday is over. The bright side is a strong family. It will be nice to get Wednesday over with.

Jodi said...

It's with a heavy heart that I tell you how sorry I am for the loss of your uncle. I hope the plentiful warm memories you have of him will comfort your family at this time. Have safe travels and I'll be thinking of and praying for you and all of Gordon's family.

benreschke said...

If anyone wants to see the obituary or sign the guest book here is the link.

http://www.legacy.com/saltlaketribune/GB/GuestbookView.aspx?PersonId=119329521&PageNo=1

Tami G. said...

It's not fair. I'm so sorry. I love you guys.

Andrea said...

Ugh. Our hearts go out to you and them. What a hard trial to be given.