Tuesday, January 29, 2008
I had cancer this morning
I had cancer this morning, but now i don't! It's over and I am all done. I had my last treatment this morning. Phew! It's been kind of a teary day for me. I don't know if it is because I am tired, because I am done, because Andrea left or because I feel like I don't have to be strong for another minute. It is a very happy day, though. I feel so much relief. The top picture is of my machine and the therapists that became my good friends. I will miss them. The next one is lunch today with my friends to celebrate. Thanks, everyone!
Jaymeson and I were talking about the house we want and all the work it will take to update it and I said,"that's ok, we have nothing but time" and that made me cry because time is what I have. It's the greatest gift I've ever been given. Time to watch my kids grow. Time to keep growing myself. This life is short and precious and I'm glad I get more of it. What a blessing.
One thing I like about living in the midwest is watching things grow. There is something soothing and reassuring about it. We have cornfields around us that I love. I hope they never build over them. It reminds us that life goes on and that miracles happen every day. I feel like cancer is like winter. It's cold and nothing grows. It's hard to get through, but I always knew spring was just around the corner. The whole metaphor is reinforced with the timing of my hair coming back. It's spring! Cancer is over and things are growing. Miracles happen every day.