Sunday, October 21, 2007

Hi everybody!



I'm so sorry I haven't been on here in so long. I think of you every day. I haven't felt great. But I know that I will feel great soon and that makes everything ok. There are little unpredictable side effects to this thing, but over all it is nice to at least know how I'm going to feel and when. I went over the yuckiest hump of this bad chemo (i hope!) and now I'll just feel better better better until (dang) I have to do it again.

Here's a pic of my new wig. It's glued on my head. Isn't that weird? But awesome. I can shower in it and curl it and whatever. It's real hair and it's very soft. I'm happy to be able to be anonymous out in public again. No more people looking at me sadly. I wanted to tell everyone i saw,"Yes, I have cancer, but I"M FINE!". My mom suggested writing it on my head. It's kind of a squinty wierd pic, but it's all i have and preslie looks awesome so focus on her. She brings me so much joy. She is such a good baby and I am so blessed to have her. If I can't have any more kids, I'm lucky to have ended on such a good one!

The girls went to a program called "HUGS" yesterday out in Saint Louis. It's a support group for kids with loved ones with cancer and it was really neat. They really spoiled them. They came home with backpacks full of treasures. They got to write little books telling their stories. I'm so grateful for people in the world that set up this kind of thing and volunteer their time and love. I hope I can do some of this stuff when this is all done. It really meant a lot to the girls and to me. Thank you HUGS!

Julene (Jaymeson's mom) left yesterday and I'm sad. It's so bittersweet to have people come help because I love having them here but am so sad to see them go. Also, If I'm going to have weird tongue-malfunctions, I'm glad it was after she came. She made so much yummy food! We had pie and cookies and bread every day. She's a great cook. We had all our floors redone while she was here, too and she was a tremendous help with that. The kids love her and miss her so much, too. I hope she comes back.

I want to thank everyone for hangin' in there. All the help and love that I received at the beginning of this hasn't waned. I'm bored of it and you can be, too. I'm glad you're not. I'm grateful for the prayers and emails. I'm grateful for the treats left on our doorstep. I'm grateful Michelle drove all day to be here and then made gourmet lunch while being trapped in our kitchen because they were laying carpet. I'm grateful for all the people who take my kids ALL DAY every wednesday so I can go to chemo. We've had so many meals. The activity days girls (ages 8-11) from the other ward came and brought dinner last week and they were so sweet. All of you make me feel so loved and valuable. I hope I can somehow do enough service over the rest of my life to somehow pay this back. Thank you. Thank you.

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

When I saw you in church today it just made me cry. I think how courageous, strong and determined you are. You came even when you weren't feeling so great. It's so wonderful to see you there since most of us don't get a chance to swarm around you as much as we'd like. You are a living example of grace, hope, faith and just coolness. I want to post this anonymous since I know it's more than just me who sees you and just feels so lucky to know you and see you in action. It's also wonderful to see Jaymee so protective and careful of you and for you. That's love, man! In sickness and health...and through all eternity...not just on earth. Keep fighting the fight with your mighty might!

Anonymous said...

Ooooooooooooo, it's so beautiful Shelby. How can you look that good and feel so bad? You are an inspiration to all. Yeah for HUGS! Love you! Andrea

Melanie said...

You look beautiful Shelby! That wig is great. It looks so real. I love you. I'm glad people aren't forgetting about you yet. I'm a little worried about you going to church when you are so imuno-compromised right now! Please, please be careful. You can't get sick now. Watch some BYU tv. Read the ensigns and your scriptures and keep away from all those germs!

Anonymous said...

Take Mels advice, Shel! Stay away from germs. I got a flu shots just in case we meet and I always wash my hands before I type you a message. - Lisa B.

Anonymous said...

Take Mels advice, Shel! Stay away from germs. I got a flu shot just in case we meet and I always wash my hands before I type you a message. - Lisa B.

Anonymous said...

That is a gorgeous new head of hair, Shelby. I'm sad for your tongue and sense of taste. I've never heard of that side effect before. I hope it doesn't last long. Only about six more weeks of this yucky stuff, right? I can't wait for you to finish so you can get better for good. Still praying for you. Every prayer, every day.
Love, Tami

Katie Price said...

You look sexy! I can't wait to see you in three days. Too bad I am coming after Julene - I'm not much of a cook. I can't make a wicked cheesecake though. See you soon!

Katie Price said...

I meant I CAN make a wicked cheesecake. Sheesh.

Lexi said...

I love you so much shelby. You look beautiful and Preslie is a doll. You are my inspiration.

Anonymous said...

u look like rapunzel. i love it!

Jenn said...

That is so awesome the girls got to go to a support group! Take your sisters advice and trust me- keep away from icky germs!!!

I LOVE the wig- Does it feel sticky to your head or anything? That is so wild but awesome! You look absolutely beautiful, as always!

Nikki said...

Wow, your little Preslie is so adorable. I have a son that age. They are so chubby and gorgeous.